Published: ▷ Audio published by Urban Arts Berlin | Synthesis Vol. 1 - International Female Composers ░ November - 2014 ░ Publication link: urbanartsberlin.bandcamp.com/synthesis-vol-1
Exhibited: ▷ Croatian Association of Artists Institution - Galerija Bacva // 'Screen Present Tense' / Zagreb, Croatia / June 9 - 27, 2017
Medium: Performance - Sound - GIF
Year: 2015 - 2014
A feeling of foreignness has accompanied me throughout my life. Foreign body, foreign place. Foreignness is not only spatial and about migration, it is where one find that certain dissonance. You can feel foreign in your own body. You can struggle to find a sense of place inside yourself. I have talked to people about this and found unexpected connections. A transgender girl told me once, she first migrated gender inside her body and then she migrated country, she identified as a double migrant. I see there are different ways in which one might find oneself at odes with one’s body. I have felt I was placed in the wrong body. Not due to a social construct, but due to biology. My body aches every second, as if I were trying to break free from it. It holds me hostage; it often takes away my autonomy. I have felt my body as an enemy, completely dissonant with my self, with my mind, with my person. Inside me, I run at a fast speed, it runs always against my pace. I live in resistance inside of it. Sometimes I have fantasized to have the body of a cyborg; I dream of that technology; I reach for it in my mind; I long for it. I long for a body that feels like home.